Digging stuff

On a philosophical note

Ever experienced a time that seems so silent in life - just another simple, repetitive routine - that you're not anticipating anything soon? Like digging without finding anything?

Imagine, suddenly you start hitting something. Eh? Have you been afraid of what people say to you? Hmmm. Have you limited your dreams and ambitions to just replace people - i.e. becoming what someone has already become? There are already plenty of brain surgeons in the world. Mmmm. On the road with friends, would you rather let go of the accelerator, or keep a steady foot to pace them up?

I think everyone likes "Aha!" moments. I do anyway. But I also realise that some people are afraid of them, because they're costly. Moments like these come like revelation to us, and with each one of them we're challenged to rise and step up. It's a choice though. And the question is, what choice would you make?

So many stuff have been dug out of me. It's not by myself, honestly. All credits to Mr Digger.

Now time to work with this newfound treasure.


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Sem4

Looking back

Perfect launch

Take the turns [focus]

Top speed

Pit stops, not sleeping bunny!

I see the light [at the end]

Don't give up

Earlier this semester I wrote down a few "motivational taglines" to be spaced out in my diary, throughout the semester, for me to reflect upon just when the fuel/power level is going down.

You can probably guess, the first few are inspired by Need for Speed Carbon.

And though things aren't as smooth as I expected when I started out, I'm believing that great things will happen.

Yeah!

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Which way is it?

A contemplation.

My MARA scholarship to study Medicine in Melbourne.

Is it God's blessing, or just a reward for my effort? Does God have to come into the picture, do I have to attribute it to Him? Can't it happen without His intervention? Or maybe...could it be a combination of both His blessing and my effort?

I applied for MARA instead of JPA.

MARA means: no 10-year contract at home, just a generously discounted payment, and the choice of Melbourne Uni. What about JPA? Apart from the contract, it would probably mean no choice of destination (UK/Ire/Aus/NZ). Here's what happened when I filled in the online form: I put JPA, tried printing it, but the official stamp was not there. I changed to MARA a few days later, and then it printed correctly. If I did not change it (can change it max 3X), it would not have gone through. Again, the question is, was it God or just me? Could any Form 5 leaver have done this without divine guidance?

The vision of triple-H1's (by credit points) came true. So did the double H1's.

It's not exactly how you would predict it; but then again I've realised that God surprises me a lot. In 1st Sem '08, I saw the triple-H1 vision. It came through when I got eighty percent for NDM in 2nd Sem. To complicate matters, during 2nd Sem, I had gotten another vision of double H1's (meaning worth straight 4 H1's for us meds). So the double H1's did not come to pass in 2nd Sem. But guess what my 3rd Sem '09 result was? *Wink* Question: Was it really God who came through to seem as if He's fulfilling what He showed to me? Or did I do it within my human capacity? Now I can't say that I generated the vision on my own. Because, for goodness' sake, I wanted 4 H1's in 2nd Sem, not just 3! But I saw 3! I can't help it, but this is a real testimony for my faith - a miracle.

A Sign

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God told me very directly: Don’t treat her any different from your other friends. In my case, that’s the best possible advice. I’ll tell you why: I like her so much, it’s almost as if she’s the only girl that matters to me now. But I don’t know whether she likes me or not. Let’s say she does not. Then the best thing for me to do is obey God and do as He says, so that our friendship does not turn into an awkward experience. But what if she likes me too? Well, thing is, with mutual liking (“we love one another”), is that enough reason to get together? I seriously think that we should only get together if God obviously tells us to. Until then, I’m not treating her any different. There’s one more complication: To be honest, I am having 2nd thoughts. Do I really like her, or is this just infatuation / lust? I better not blindly follow my instincts only to end up breaking her heart and mine (and God’s). Even if I do really like her, I actually ought to set her free on whatever course God has planned for her, instead of being ultra-possessive about her. So in all cases, it goes back to following God’s advice. God, You’re the best!

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