Letting go

Are you prepared?

So what was the real motive you had? Was it just to make easy bucks out of someone who needs help with what you excel at? How hard can revising Sem 2 and 3 be? And how many people do you know can generate that much per hour?

*Thinking and wrinkling*

Or if that is no longer your real motive, then what is? Tell me, what is it that you really want from this job? Is it to get paid to help? Help to empower? Empower to help others? Heck, are you really praying that this person you're helping will pass with flying colours, with heightened capacity to care for the health of sick, suffering people?

And the financial reward, do you really wait on The One before even spending 5 cents from it? To give to the person who needs it so much more than you?

And are you letting go of your grip, ~3 weeks before the scheduled moment? No more holding too tightly? To hand it to the one this job is meant to be for?

Isn't that too unselfish (all those actions)? Wouldn't God be the only source of such selfless love?

Bonus pic: Heart shape from ice.

Picture credit: boardhost.com (Sue She)

Dapat kerja

Now this is a post that I write just so that there is something in each month (now September)

I just got a job last week. A nursing student needed a private tutor for Anatomy and Physiology. I've been searching for jobs on Careers Online since mid-July (2 months ago), hoping for a job to occupy me this semester. Talking with the carpark attendants also enlightened me on job opportunities; for a moment I was considering work as a waiter in a hotel (5 star). Well, what was available was not a waitering position, but a kitchen hand. I figured that a more interactive job like a waiter would be more valuable in my CV, so I put off the kitchen hand for a while. In my institute's intro pack, it was suggested that tutoring is another potential form of work that is value-adding. I mentioned it to a friend, and he said it's also good financially because it is cash-in-hand. And then this job appeared on the web. I emailed the person, thinking that I was too late. But I wasn't, so I got the job. Thank God!

It's been a big turn-around since the last couple of months. Just read at my posts and you'll see the financial struggles that burdened me. But I wasn't like a stranded vagabond in a far away land with nothing to eat and wear, because God's provision (especially food) still flowed during that time. I just can't thank God enough!

It actually was a strange feeling when I got my first pay (in cash!). Satisfying...fulfilling...almost triumphant. For a moment my motive was kicked to the side - off from the main target which is to help someone so that this person can help others.

But that's for the next post.